ako? sure ka?

i was invited to speak at an ateneo student’s forum on human rights in the next few days.

i was like, “what the……”

are they drugs?

do they know what they’re getting into?

me, speak in front of a whole gym filled with students and make a stupid fool of myself? 

i can do small crowds.

a medium crowd even!
really now. if you’re interested to know.. 

i did say Yes.

the good Paring Bert endorsed me so i couldn’t let him down.

OOHHHMMM.

i need to channel calmness.

OOOHHMMM.

i promise not to be dorky and not embarrass myself.

i promise not to trip on my own two fumbly feet.

i promise to be normal.

i promise.

really now just thinking about it makes me wanna vomit. 

maybe it’s my time to shine.

but i don’t wanna shine.

i wanna be my old boring, matte self.

no shining whatsoever. 

see this is how I get when I’m nervous.

i act stupid, write stupid.

Very very stupid.

can someone please take a photo of me while i stutter on stage? sil vous plait?